kisses don't lie.

making her the next big thing?

2010-12-14T17:46:00.001+11:00

Jeremy's niece. she's the cutest I swear! :DD

#18 panda &hearts

2010-11-10T19:54:00.000+11:00

"what? cannot sit here is it?"

#17 panda &hearts

2010-11-04T05:04:00.002+11:00

nom nom!
weheartit

it's all a dream.

2010-10-03T03:46:00.002+11:00

i miss 2009. i miss everything about 2009 before I left.

We all seem so together. Now everyone is going their own way.

Soon, everyone will be on the different side of the continent.

sigh.

mobarak bashe

2010-08-22T20:13:00.005+10:00

and once again here I am.

I'd always wondered, is it me or is it you?
But then I realized, maybe it's just a little of you and I.
Never thought that someone can be this dirty and messy.

I went to the Sydney Aquarium recently and you were right,
the last stop was the best.

For a friend of mine, it'll be his paradise, his TV. haha
You see, he's a big fan of aquatic life in general.

It's just shocking really, to lost touch and to learn that so many things had changed,
for good and for bad.
though things are now back to normal.
just need some time to digest it.

so...

a little about everything around me now. (if you're interested)
I'll be starting uni in Jan!

it's almost the end of winter, THANK YOU!
but it'll be the start of spring, so here comes the sneezing. :(
fun people left the country,
can't wait for you guys to come back!
the year is getting better
though there's the issue about moving.
sigh...

til then!

errr...will you believe me if I were to say that I own that big boi there? :D
he swam by to say hi to me.
.

ctkm.

i've lost my inspiration

2010-06-26T22:14:00.004+10:00

weheartit

to blog.
restricted.
there's nothing i can say.

heaps of things going on right now.

failure does not just come once.
with each wild card, i have something to gain.

this is a test.
i'll prove that i am capable of this.
the storm, it'll be over soon.
and I will be able to feel the sunlight kissing my skin.

withlove.

oh my babies!

2010-05-21T19:05:00.010+10:00

WARNING: Not for the baby haters.

HUGE EYES OMG!

Images: weheartit.

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-10T02:16:00.003+10:00

Happy Mother's Day to you mummy! and of course to all the mothers around the world. :)

Without you, we don't exist. :)

'perfect' timing

2010-05-02T23:41:00.003+10:00

approx. 2 weeks til my exam and i'm down with flu, sore throat and cough.

how great! i cant even study properly. :(

this is bad, real real bad! :(

and thanks for stopping by. here's a picture for you. will blog more when my finals are over. :)

weheartit

loves.

within temptation - all i need.

2010-04-29T16:08:00.002+10:00

just 3 more weeks til my finals.
it'd been a busy week with all the deadlines for assignments and lab work.
it felt like as if time is passing by really quickly.

wish me luck. :)

within temptation - all i need
i love. :D

carol.

i miss you mummy.

2010-04-25T23:34:00.001+10:00

"do i look smart mummy?"

weheartit

#16 panda &hearts

2010-04-04T17:14:00.002+10:00

"eh don't force me can? I shy lah"
weheartit

#15 panda &hearts

2010-04-04T17:11:00.003+10:00

(out of curiosity) what's underneath here?
weheartit

#14 panda &hearts

2010-04-04T17:06:00.001+10:00

mother's love.
wehearit.

#13 panda &hearts

2010-03-31T10:52:00.003+11:00

"bluekkkk!"

weheartit.

pixie lott - gravity.

2010-03-28T23:38:00.007+11:00

I had to reformat my laptop few days back.
It was infected with trojan, virus and worms.
My laptop was behaving as if it has its mind of its own.-.-
and of course, everything couldn't be saved.
the only option was to reformat straight.
All gone. GONE!!!
sad. :(

trying hard to get back most of my stuff.
anyone know how? software or something?

Anyway,
updates!
Sorry for the disappearing.
Had been real busy with studies and prac works.
We went to the Royal National Park yesterday for the Biology excursion.
Well, as most of you know, this is my second time there.
The weather was surprisingly bearable this time around.
But the journey was pretty much a pain in the ass.

The Easter holiday is starting for us this Friday.
which means, time for me to study harder.
exams is about 1 month's time.
:/ bummer!

random: Ike is cute! :D

heathland.
.

This place has the nicest view ever! :D

Charins and I.
The heart we tried to form is 'distorted'. -.-
.
Symbio.
amazing sleeping posture.

pretty Southern Cassowary. the sound they make is pretty fascinating.
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and my fav! Red Panda! :) Doesn't look like a panda to me.
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Smiling Llama.
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Checking out other kangaroos.
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Rainforest.

Going to bed now. Goodnight! :)

withlove,
carol.

mummy, iPoo'd.

2010-03-06T14:49:00.002+11:00

weheartit.

#12 panda &hearts

2010-02-26T23:27:00.001+11:00

" * blank * "
weheartit.

#11 panda &hearts

2010-02-17T10:17:00.004+11:00

weheartit.

all the broken dreams, take everything, but they can never have yesterday.

2010-02-15T23:13:00.005+11:00

quiet cny in Sydney.
Had reunion dinner with the mother side relatives though. :)
First time spending cny without my family in Malaysia,
definitely missing a lot; family, food, atmosphere, people. :(
but hei! I have to get used to this yeah?

Jean: Good luck to you in Melbourne sis! :)

waiting for the weekend to come when we all can go out for a cny thing.
hope that it'll work. :/

ohwell!signing off!
have heaps to do now. :)

Happy Chinese New Year people! :)
Win more money when you gamble kay? :p

and sadly I can't see my long lost neighbours; Nicky and Jeng Yee. :(
miss them dearly.
guess we can blame on wrong timing. :(

and,
this is how my hair looks like now. (the thing i did last approx. a month ago)
sorta soft wave like. :)
THIS! is a mini version of Happy Buddha.
He's super adorable and fat fat. :D
He's my cousin, Evan. :)

here's something I would like to share.

Leona Lewis - Yesterday.
I just can't believe you're gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise
Even without you by my side

When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it I'm reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams, take everything
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams, take everything
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday

You always used to say
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or at least how the story goes
But I never believed them till now

I know I'll see you again, I'm sure
No, it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night, one more day
One more smile on your face
But they can't take yesterday

I thought our days would last forever
But it wasn't our destiny
Coz in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
No, I can't believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

All the broken dreams, take everything
But they can never have yesterday
.

caroline.

#10 panda &hearts

2010-02-03T20:02:00.002+11:00

golek golek.
panda 1: "let's roll like ball!"
panda 2: "can you do this?"
panda 1: "can! but i think i'm stuck"

weheartit.

caroline.

Big 2 & 0

2010-02-03T19:57:00.003+11:00

i'm sorry to keep you waiting.this time i put a hen-surme picture of you lah okay?

to make you feel younger, you're finally 2 decades old. :p

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY my kawan baik and neighbour!
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that's all! :p
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and of course,
we're still friends til date which is amazing.
thanks for the help that you gave when I needed to.
and keep up the good work on being a pain in my arse! :p

and please get your ass to Oz okay? :D

bittersweet.

2010-02-03T02:47:00.003+11:00

it was inexplicable.

i felt a sudden rush of emotion.
right now, knowing that everyone reads this,
i don't even know how am i supposed to write as i feel.
every word i say could be misunderstood, misinterpreted.
that girl managed to make you smile and laugh even though she's not your type.

you know me well to sense something. :)
i had a nightmare today from a short nap this evening.
it felt so real. i can't help but notice how different you were while talking to your new friend. you seem happier.
i have a few confessions.
i'm afraid of changes.
i'm afraid of speaking what's in my mind.

i'm afraid of being away from the ones I love.
how nervous
but,
I am not afraid of being in new places.
I am not afraid of learning new things.
I am not afraid of having to adapt to new environments.
how nervous you were when i walked out and sat behind you while you replied her.
sometimes it's nice to take a break, and take a look around you.
like say, when the sky is clear with star.
and it became cloudy the next hour when you stepped out for fresh air.
which direction was the wind blowing the clouds to.
it is weird seeing you behaving like this. this side of you.

I would like to be carried by the wind like the clouds.

caroline.

and yes mum, i do miss you. :(

#9 panda &hearts

2010-02-01T21:35:00.002+11:00

"but mummy told me not to talk to strangers."
weheartit

caroline.

it was before i came back.

2010-01-28T23:18:00.006+11:00

superman fail.

Photo of the Month!

why i'm not in it?
too busy capturing the funny moments. :)

caroline.

#8 panda &hearts

2010-01-26T14:06:00.003+11:00

im sleepy.
im hungry.
im lazy.

i guess that i'm too used to waking up with food prepared by mum just downstairs. :D

"come let's play, i'm bored."
weheartit.

caroline.

#7 panda &hearts

2010-01-25T14:29:00.004+11:00

try this!
lying down with your feet up the air.
panda oh panda why are you so cute? :)
weheartit.

i'm finally here.
it feels different.
i miss my mum, dad, bro, aunt, friends.
people who were with me for the past 1 month plus. :(

caroline.

#6 panda &hearts

2010-01-16T15:21:00.002+11:00

ouch!
weheartit

#5 panda &hearts

2010-01-16T01:24:00.003+11:00

sniff my ass. :)

jinx.

2010-01-15T16:07:00.005+11:00

This month is officially a bad month.
Trying to get my effing CoE asap and right now the office is blaming this and that. wtf
i'm so fucking pissed now.
stupid lady was so rude. :(

anyways! pictures! after so long. but i'm not uploading much.
I'd been out with these people for the past few days.

met for dinner. :D
.
camwhored with her lappie.
.
after movies!
HAHAHA!
.
This is the chi chi's pose!:p
.
kepochi jealous cause we didnt include him along. so here u go!
***

I managed to settle my things while blogging.
It's good to be a girl.
both parties are stupid for pushing this matter around.
I hope you itch the whole day. grrr.
i'm going for brunch. at 1.27p.m. :(

caroline.

#4 panda &hearts

2010-01-13T00:36:00.004+11:00

panda emo. :(
i've nothing to hide.

universal lies.

2010-01-11T20:19:00.007+11:00

did a little something to my hair finally.
ended looking like a doll. 0.0
in 2 days time it'll be different :)

I hope that everything goes well.
sometimes I feel like giving up it's because everything around me is not stable,
not because I can't do it.
they say they have faith in me but i felt like they don't have.
I felt like I'm just a waste of space and money.
I'm sorry if I'm a disappointment.
i want to be the best but i can't.
but it doesn't mean that i did not tried.
no one choose to see the bright side, all they see is the ugly side.

it's pretty frustrating at times.
i need to breathe.

please try to understand me the easy way.
don't make simple things into something complicating.

weheartit.
another lie. I'm gay, I'm actually a man.

caroline.

#3 panda &hearts

2010-01-11T03:03:00.003+11:00

i'm in kl now.
feeling so sick.
friends if you're reading this, call me when you want to meet up.
I'll be here til Fri. :)

weheartit.
i'm always feeling sleepy. why is it?

caroline.

#2 panda &hearts

2010-01-09T17:57:00.003+11:00

I'd just realized that I started blogging in a very kiddish way in year 2006.
wow, almost 4 fucking years. :D

weheartit.
BOOGAH! :D

i'm sleepy but i can't sleep.
having guests over here.
entertain me please. :(

caroline.

#1 panda &hearts

2010-01-09T12:55:00.017+11:00

it's 9.56 a.m. and I just got back from breakfast.
grumpy as hell.
annoyed as hell.
and threatened to lock mummy outside the house cause she refused to send me home. :p
(it was a harmless threat, really)
checking my email for any news from the uni.
and then I found this.

weheartit.
ahhh...

I want to sleep.
:(

rawr.

once in a lifetime.

2010-01-09T03:46:00.007+11:00

weheartit.

When you're near me
I close my eyes
I want to feel you by my side
When you kiss me
I close my eyes
Want you by my side

i want to feel you here right next to me...

what's with me at times?
sometimes I'm ashamed of myself for not being in uni at this age.
sometimes I find myself a little eccentric.
this year i vowed to nerd up and get better results than the previous sem.
every year it seems to be the same damn thing.
going back seems to be better.
you know less people.
walk down the street without the need to care whether people are looking.
cause no one gives a damn. :)

something random.

weheartit.

Gregorian - Once in a Lifetime.
introduced by him.
i thought of you when i heard this song.
:(

caroline.

we ♥ it.

2010-01-08T20:24:00.007+11:00

they say,

i say it's always true.
.
have you kissed the one you love today?mwah! :)
weheartit.

why can't everything go smoothly.
i need a break.

caroline.

you are beautiful.

2010-01-08T02:34:00.003+11:00

waiting for mum to pick me up so I checked my email once again for my offer letter.
and finally! they sent it to me. omg!
and I thought that I can finally sleep in peace, til I read the email.
wtf, no mid year intake for uni for Medical Science!
which means, visa cancel and I have to fly back to Malaysia. dulan. -.-
So now, checking for Bachelor of Science. I'm not taking Medical Science anyway. :/
let's pray that all goes well for me yeah?
I'd been a good girl in 2009. :(

I didn't realized that it's only 2 weeks away til the day I'm flying off again.
So much to do!
Haven't done my shopping, Visa, payment, etc.
It's all because of the offer letter. pfft.
Now that I have it, I'll be dropping by in KL next week.
Shopping on Sun with the mother and aunties, Mon (hair appointment), and Tues onwards til Friday, reserved for you people who wants to meet up. :)
I'll text you guys when I'm down!

Mum is back! gotta go! :)

our life. ;)

caroline.

fireflies.

2010-01-04T03:24:00.003+11:00

wOwl hCity-aFireflies.t
aImlove thisIsong.whe ilikes tit has owell.u:)t
what do you think?u
i miss you derrick tan. :)
every day is like a ' semii 'ltortureotovmee.
i feel so tired, agitated, sleepy.u

withlove,
carol.

felt like i'd been running for ages.

2010-01-02T17:29:00.004+11:00

saying goodbye to 2009 and now we welcome 2010.
2010 will be a great year for us. :)

I'd been waking up for almost 3-4 times at night.
something bothering me? or is it just because of the emptiness?
felt like i'm drowning in the pool of memories.
memories of both sweet and bitter ones.
it felt like i'd been running around trying to find a way out.
i felt like i didn't have the strength to pull myself out of this dream.
it felt so real. so dangerous.

lelove

need me to say anymore? :)

carol.

footprints in the sand.

2009-12-22T21:08:00.006+11:00

When I was in Sydney, the urge of coming back is there.
But when I'm back, why do I feel that this isn't what I'm back for?

something is missing.
The food that I was craving for so badly suddenly doesn't taste great.
it felt like, they're just...food.

Will I feel the same when I get back to Sydney?

it feels like, everything is not falling into places.
the truth is not out.

people screwing up with your mind all the time.
friends whom you call as friends are not what they are suppose to be.
people whom you least expect to be your 'friend', are there...right in front of you.

will I make it through? I really hope that I will be able to.
people change all the time. for better and for worse.
sometimes you don't even know who they are anymore.

when you see them, it's like as if you once know them, not anymore.
it's amazing how 9 months can make a huge difference.
I can barely recognize anything.
it's like a new place now. a different feeling.
what's left here?
just memories. memories of how things used to be.

ups and downs, we've been through that.
love and hatred, it's all forgotten and forgiven.

I used to think that people from different background and lifestyle can blend together.
it is not impossible but sometimes the pressure is there.
how can one get rid of that?
cause frankly speaking, i'm sick of that pressure.

words said and told.
but of course, words are merely words.
they never happen.

i don't know anything at all.
i don't know what's right and what's not.
there are things that i would just prefer to bury and never look back.
i don't even know whether their intentions are for my good or their own good.

there are times where i would rather curl up in a ball and stay in my bubble.
i feel protected from the voices around me.

withlove,
caroline.

.

R.I.P Brittany Murphy.

take a gun, and count to three.

2009-12-21T02:56:00.011+11:00

How are you people?

I'd finally met majority of the people I wanted to meet so it's time for a little update.
Usually I would prefer to update when I have pictures to share with you guys.
Cause you see, no one likes to read,
some say pictures are better than words. ;)

On wednesday, I met up with Jean, Dexter and a new friend Kay.
We went to pyramid for lunch,
then dinner at yaya.

On thursday,
met up with Ryan, Praev and Sherry for lunch.
the indian food is awesome i swear! :D can't remember what's the name of the place though.
went to midvalley for Avatar. It was fully booked for 3D but yeah, I was desperate so I insisted that we watch from the second row. it was a pain in the ass I swear.
But! No regrets! :) It's a damn damn good show.
p.s. we're planning to watch in 3D again. yeays! and I want to accompany that sweetheart to watch again. :)

on friday, went out with reed to ss15, met up with Yeh Hee as well.
chat a little til it was dinner time. Headed to Delicious for dinner and met up with Fuad and Ness. :)

Saturday! Planned supper for the people who wanted Murni! :D oh yeah baybeh! sadly my memory card betrayed me. Transfered the pictures and majority of them are fucked. wtf. knnccb!#@$#$ Went to starbucks with Ryan and chilled. Met Kyan and Yeh Hee. Went to ac and they played pool. Then met up with Jean, Dexter and RYO! :D went to murni and the others joined. ( Jon, Colin, Brian, Chee Hong, Thomas, Praev, Bernard ) we spent like 4 hours there just talking and eating. that was nice. :)

it was nice catching up with everyone. though some of you are far apart. deep down, the old us are still there. :)

Well! I shall end my boring post here cause I need to focus on someone now.
Pictures!

it says Starfucks. they erased a little. haha.
us girls playing dress up with kitty. :D

that's all!
internet is a bitch so i'm stopping here!

withlove,

caroline.

was talking. wanted to block my face. so yeah, lala-ed to the camera. :D

tik tok.

2009-12-16T04:28:00.003+11:00

i'm addicted to that song. i don't know why. it's meaningless but catchy, rather annoying at the beginning. haha

went out with Praev and Ryan, finally!
thanks for picking me up though I'm living at a place which is inconvenient for you guys.
it was nice to be able to catch up now. :) sorry for my emo moment though.

tomorrow I'm hoping to see them! hopes that everything goes well. :(

mummy and aunt are not so strict about me going out anymore i suppose. thank God!
no more worrying and arguing. haha

i'd been working for the past 2 days. helping out my aunt at her office.
so i'm kinda tired.

what am i doing here? sigh.

p.s. i need you.

happy.

2009-12-15T02:21:00.003+11:00

someone once told me
that you have to choose
what you win or lose
you cant have everything
dont you take chances
you might feel the pain
dont you love in vain
cause love wont set you free
i could stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
so unhappy but safe as could be

had been spending time with my family ever since I reach kl.
Though I felt like I'll be happier in Sydney, the one thing which I'll be upset about is me being away from my family.
no matter how much they nag me, I still love them. they nag because they care, the care because they love me.

The reason why I'll be happier in Sydney is because I'm able to live on my own. and make myself believe that I'm able to look after myself.
I always wanted to prove to my family that I can make it on my own too. I don't need people to watch me all the time and not letting me fall.

Coming back, I felt like everything had changed. derrick
it kind of upset me a bit. tan
i realized the huge gap which exists among the bonds which existed before i left. i
i realized the importance of a friendship which was semi-lost when a relationship ended. miss
i realized how people can grow apart in such a short period of time. you

but then of course, I have to adapt to changes.
and yes, not to be naive. changes can be good at times.

but I want things to be back to like how it used to be last time.
it was fun. :)
the truth is: i miss the old times. :(

so what if it hurts me.

2009-12-11T04:57:00.006+11:00

i saw this coming before coming back.
i'm much more happier when i'm back in Sydney.

coming home gives me pressure.
pressure to be better (indirectly).
i felt like as if i'd not changed for better. i'm never good enough for you mum.
i felt like as if i'm never going to be good enough.
that i will never be viewed as independent.
i'll always be viewed as the rebellious one. you'll never even bother to listen to what i have to say.

well, fck you to those who try to tell her how i am when it's entirely false.
go fck yourself can? i can't take it anymore.

and i'd been commented that i'd gained weight.
and that I shouldn't be given food.
I was starving today that I was feeling dizzy.
while I was waiting for my late dinner to arrive,
they were still commented on how much i gained.
i fucking lost 1kg k? and it's not easy for a person like ME!
even before i flew to Sydney, i'm always 'fat' to all of you.
gesusfuckingkrais!

i don't get it, why were they focusing on how round i look when it's not very important?
yes, i have chubby cheeks. it runs in the family.
well i'm SORRY that I'm not as stick thin as the girls around me.
am i not good enough for anyone at all?
*roll eyes*

sometimes I find living far away will make things easier for all of us.
it's not the freedom. it's the space.
sometimes, i just feel like killing myself.

p.s. i'm missing you.

i'm just being a girl.

2009-12-09T17:23:00.005+11:00

i guess i'm the only one here without a life.
everyone has SOME THING to do at least!

here i am, thinking of how am i going to cut my hair this time.

I'd kept my hair for 9 months without cutting as requested by dearest Annabeth.
BUT dear, I can't keep any longer. I NEED to cut.
as you can see, I don't grow my hair. :)

she wanted to see me with long hair and now that it's longer than hers and she saw it yesterday,
I can finally cut it!

so! should I get this hair?Son Ga-In from BEG.
pixie hair.

OR

you remember her.
Alice from Twilight/New Moon.
not a big fan of the movie but yeah, I love her hair in New Moon. :D
slightly longer pixie. :)

OR

hers!
Anne Hathaway in Devil Wears Prada
bangs!

OR

simple wave.
couldn't think of any right now so i'm going to use Blake Lively as an example.

ohwell!
I know posting this will be useless.
there are heaps of silent readers.
but it'll be a good reference when I need my gfs' opinion. :)

i love babies.

2009-12-09T13:47:00.011+11:00

it's true! don't you just loveeeeeee babies! especially the super fat and round ones?
all they can do is eat and cry.
and when they try and talk with their baby language, ahhhh that melts my heart every single time.

1st post from me when I'm back in Malaysia!

coming back reminds me of the past.
how I used to feel and what was on my mind before.
it's like walking on memory lane.
regarding my 'present', i would like to keep it to myself or share with people who cares about me. not for those who just want to know and leave me after knowing.
sometimes some things just happen out of my control.
i can't stop recalling the love, hatred, fun, fights, laughter and etc.
when i'm back, this thing hit me hard.
the fact that everyone is not around anymore.
what's left here for me?
friends who have their lives to lead and family to spend time with
and only all the half hanging issues which exists for no reason and will never be resolved.
sometimes i wish that I can just let go of that negativity in me that i left behind when I left for Sydney.

will you tell me when there's something new in your life?
i wouldn't bother to tell if you don't bother to tell.

boy is flying back today.
he'll be a little closer to me now.
but still under my ass. *winks ;)*
have a safe flight!

I met with the girls yesterday; June & Beth and their sisters.
met Reed as well, and decided to pay babyKimberly (Justin's baby) a visit.
and my my she's such a cutie!
we were all fighting to carry her of course. and poor baby had to come out to Old Town cause we're not familiar with Wong Ah Jang's area.
here's some pictures. :)

she did this thing with her mouth (resembling tweety bird) and started to spit her saliva.
SUPER CUTE!
.

and this is what baby always do. :D
NOMNOMNOM
.

June, babyKimberly and I. :D
.

i may be going to kl this week or next week.
see you people in kl! :)

withlove.

sticky.

2009-12-06T16:02:00.003+11:00

reached KL yesterday night. i
had my first mamak food after 9 months! miss
I must say, i wasn't really that satisfied. you
and i'm flying back to Kuantan later in the evening. derrick
so yeap! tan
here I come Kuantan! :) <3

I'll be back in kl in say, 2 weeks time?
I'll keep you people updated.
:) til then! turrah!

with love,
carol.

ghost of you and me.

2009-12-05T00:45:00.015+11:00

tonight is my last night.

survived on 2 Gb of internet with a shitty internet connection for December.
couldn't login to my msn because they want me to update but i couldn't.
what a month!

I'd been spending the last few days packing everything and man it was hell!
there are stuff which exists at some corner of our unit, and I'd completely forgotten about their existence.
and finally i'm done packing.
it's the end of a good year, good place, awesome people, shitty people, loving people and yade yade yada.

When I was packing, I recalled how upset I was when I first got here.
How everything happened at the wrong timing.
How everything happened to fast.
How everything was not supposed to happen that way.
How everything is not falling into places.
I realized that, oh well! it's not all that bad, isn't it?

Though I'm far from everyone whom I care and love,
I have people who cares about me here.
Who made me feel like I want to protect them.
Who made me feel happy.
Who made me laugh when I'm in a bad mood.
and thank you for everything my dearest friends here. :) and you! ;)

here's a very quick one, with pictures of course.
it's getting pretty late now, so enjoy!

Graduation Cruise.

at the hotel.
Shindy helping me out.
.
oh we had time for camwhoring whole preparing. :D
.

before the cruise.

I miss them people. :(
.

during the cruise.

we managed to catch Alex Durie, our Chemistry lecturer, to dance with us that night.
My former Maths tutor pulled me to dance with her on the dance floor.
everyone is nice and it was so much fun,
THIS is part of the reason why I want you here Jean! :)

*
random outing.
.

Hotpot after Karaoke@BigEcho with the classmates.

.

Maroubra Beach.
.

Us stepping on the sand.
The reason why Kota is all wrapped up is that, he's afraid of getting tanned.
.

Birdies want to be tan like them too. :p
.

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Kiu buried this time. With boobies and abs! :D
.

lady want to be tan. :p

*

Moe's birthday.

he turned 20 this year. :D
gifts from D and I.
Boxers with monkey dangling in the middle, a cuteass cow, and 2 waterguns. :D
.

Bz and Moe.
Is it me or is it really odd to see a middle eastern to do the asian girl pose? haha!
.

Birthday card.
Click on the image to read. lol
.

fellas showing off. :p
.

pressies time!
definitely heaps of cow-related stuff!
and he was happy of course
.

I asked the fellas to give a funny face.
and he was smiling and talking,
Bardia: " But THIS IS my funny face! isn't it funny?"
*smack head*
.

Moe's isn't THAT big. It's just one of his present, a moving hairy yellow ducky.
.

if you are wondering where did part of the food during Graduation Ceremony went to?
here it is.
they ate this for 2 weeks. haha!
.

This is Bz, with his trademark hair.
and his trademark pose of course. :p
.

birthday boy as the king for the day!
.

Bardia is shorter, trying hard to look tall. :p
.

one of the many entertainments of the night.

.

Hussain trying to finger the tv.
.

half is Bz's work of art and another half is Moe's.
can you identify which?
we gotten it right for our first guess. :p

Randomness.
.

tsktsk! wtf! -.-
.

HAHAHHA!
.

I think that's about it!
I can't wait to see you people back in Malaysia!
Missed you guys like hell!
til then! :D

with lots of love,
caroline.

p.s. I'll be back in Kuantan on the 6th. and will be back in KL again some time soon! I'll inform you people! :)

<3 : i'll miss you terribly baby. take good care of yourself. kiss kiss! love you baby!

it's like chasing the very last train.

2009-11-17T01:11:00.003+11:00

3 down, 3 more to go.

Had my Maths paper this afternoon and it was all stuffy and hot and the air was dry.
A hall filled with students approx around 300?
Well, picture that.
Maths was hard that most of the people I know left some questions unanswered.

But let's not compare others cause I know that I screwed up badly in Maths.
Overall, Biology was a rush. I can do it but wasn't confident enough.
Computing was also a rush. freaking tutor was messing with my mind throughout the exam. gesus!

2 days and 3 papers more.
Will I get a C for my English again?
Sometimes I wonder if it is fair for a person who knows shit to get a higher GPA than me.
(We're talking about the type who does not even know how to factorize of expand)
or whether it is fair for a person who knows his shit to get a lower GPA than me.
(We're talking about the type who can finish his Class test within 20minutes and still scores a 20/20)
and the worse part is, I failed my Semester 1.
and of course the grades given for certain subjects really made me speechless. (Am I worse than a person who can't even speak, read or write in English well, not that I'm good in English, but you get the point)

I have a feeling that I will have to repeat my Semester 2 again.
I'm really hoping for a better year next year.
Reason is simple, this year is shitty enough.
God please spare me.
I'm like a magnet who attracts troubled people.
(We're talking about people with multiple personality, attitude problems and etc.)
I know it's pretty common, but I swear this case is severe. ;) trust me when I say that.

After the exams, I'm going to start packing my stuff, reading my newly bought books, looking for new places with good food, and etc.

looking forward for it!
my biological clock is screwed.
I've been sleeping at around 4 a.m. lately and getting up in the afternoon feeling lethargic.
Science students are having a day off tomorrow. Last 3 papers are on Wednesday and Thursday.
Why do I feel as though exams are already over?
is it because I lost faith in myself?

p.s. If I fail, I'm sorry mum. :(

oh negativity! Be gone! You're like a leech sucking up my blood. argh!

It's all coming to an end.
All good things have to come to an end.
I will miss you people, dearest BL1. :(

***
withlove.

"you're like a rainbow. The only thing that's filled with colours no matter how dull the sky is."
Do you see what I see?

Note: there's a second rainbow fading away. and the pretty obvious one:-different shades on both sides. :)

***

111109

2009-11-11T00:23:00.002+11:00

a very quick birthday shout out to Mishand Balu.

It's your birthday, and yes you're tua now.

I will not start with the long speech of 'thanking my mother, father, brother, sister, doggy' cause I'm currently having my finals.

But to keep things short and simple,
thanks.

for being there for me all the time.
for being such a great friend.
and yes we have arguments and miscommunications like every other friendships,
but I'd known you since primary school (tuition),
had heart-to-heart conversation with you (high school),
knows MOST of your memalufying stories.
and standing up for me like a true brother whatever happens.

Last but not least!

Happy Birthday! =) Don't party til muntah here and there okay? :D

p.s. macha! tetek still big or not? :p

it's 5th of November.

2009-11-05T13:39:00.003+11:00

Happy 19th Birthday Baby!
you're officially elder than me. =p
hope to see you back again in Kuantan.

Come come, baby come, be my toy friend, let me play with you.

2009-10-30T16:56:00.008+11:00

A little something for you. ;)

David Guetta - Toyfriend.

spring is here.

purple is my new favorite.
and this is why. :)

but spring is bad for me;
allergies and etc.
sneezing, swelling & itching here and there, tight chest...
not fun AT ALL.

and oh,
I miss you. =)
mother is on facebook.
and so as her 2 sisters and brother in laws and and and GUESS WHAT?!
my whole family is on Facebook! =D

here comes the bombardments that I'll be facing for the next 20 years of my life.
and in case you're reading this mum, I still love you! haha!

A reason why Australia rocks harder than Malaysia,
you can call your fugly car 'FUGLIE'. =DDD

However,
we still have Malaysians coming up with something like 'PEN 15' (PENIS)
It's somewhere in my previous post and I'm lazy to search for that picture again.

I'm finally done with the essay and presentation and I seriously think that I don't deserve that grade for my presentation. There are flaws but then again, comparison and so on. I shall not disclose anymore information. It's a dangerous world out here in the world wide web. pfft.

FINALS! i hate you. i have a feeling that i'm not going to do well again.
I'm trying to be optimistic here. It'd been a very hectic week of the year. officially!
Had been having 2-3 hours of sleep. Waking up late for class and etc.
sighssssss!

I have a lot to complain but I shall not bore you with all the things I have to say.
scratch that, I need to complain about the recent Gossip Girl episodes.
Hilary Duff as Olivia Burke.
I know she's famous and so on but please,
the girl can't sing nor act!
She's only famous because she started off in Disney's Lizzy McGuire WHICH she left! (not to mention how stupid she is)
Her recent music videos are really really bad.
Trying to act sexy is not going to help you get to the top.
Starring in Gossip Girl hurts my eyes.
Watching a decent 'playing-peekaboo-and-tickling-under-the-blanky' scene of you and Penn Badgley (Dan Humphrey) made me blind.
Why can't you just get out of my favourite TV show?
here! you should get what I mean...
Don't worry. The whole 3 seconds scene was just that. interesting much?=)

In some epis, the clothes they wore are simply ugly.
However! there are some pretty ones. like...
this!
The Rag & Bone 'Justine' Dress
.
and also this.
Notte by Marchesa Spring Collection 2009
.
and my all time favorite!
love the colour and the design of it.
J. Mendel's Fall 2008.
but this is the runway look.
T.T can die.
.
a random picture.
Ivanka Trump recently got married.
Her Vera Wang gown is inspired by Grace Kelly.
timeless and elegant. :D

anyway! he's back and I'm ending this.

Have a nice weekend people!

Con amor.

p.s. Estoy enamorado

i believe in a thing called love.

2009-10-25T14:38:00.004+11:00

the darkness - i believe in a thing called love.

We ordered 2 regular pizza and 1 choc larva cake...for 2.
and I'm feeling the pizza now. argh.

I'm still working on my presentation. can anyone do it for me?=(

will be meeting Henry later for dinner so I won't be able to study or finish up on my presentation. but at least I still get to see little Miranda. =)

It's gloomy, wet and dull outside.
ideal for sleeping in.
but there's so much to do, yet so little time.
why did i wasted all my time on assignments.

in a week's time, we'll be done with founda, and here comes finals.
then graduation party. then then, yet to decide on where to go before heading back to Malaysia.
I dreamt of nasi lemak and keropok lekor. mail them to me please.=(

I think I should continue preparing for my presentation.
Tomorrow and Tuesday will be a long day. 3 labs in 2 days. how exciting! :(
Monday classes are from 9 am to 8 p.m.
Tuesday is the same. Just that we have longer breaks in between. oh sigh. =(

anyways! pictures!

Lately, I'd been...

camwhoring. =p
.
ruining pictures.
.

peeing like a dude.
.

totally unrelated: fellas from Melbourne. =)
.

more camwhoring.
.

and errr. behaving like Johnny Bravo.
.

unrelated: Lj's birthday.
.

and more camwhoring.
that big ass specs belong to the Korean in red behind me; Sangjin.

withlove.

p.s. don't ask me when am I coming back again okay. =( hurts me that you guys can't even remember. wuu wuuu. =((

the letter.

2009-10-20T01:27:00.004+11:00

Listening to: Hoobastank ft. Vanessa Amorosi - The Letter.

Just completed my long essay and I must say, What a relief!
Halfway through my seminar presentation, again and finals in 2 weeks time.
That means, I will not have time to update much.

Frankly speaking, I'm not prepared for my finals and I'm definitely not confident about my performance for my finals. fingers crossed! Wish me all the best!

I'm going to bed soon. It's 1.30 a.m.

But before I end this post, a little entertainment for you guys.

credits: to you.

Pranks by Russian students.
HAHA! I like the Jesus part. :D
.
random: Anal inspection. haha! damn cute.

withlove.

foreign land.

2009-10-07T18:12:00.017+11:00

listening to: Eskimo Joe - Foreign Land.

I'd finally decided to not wait for the bloody internet company to get things done and instead!

...I bought the Internet Key!

so now i can update you guys from time to time.
I wouldn't be online most of the time cause exam is a month away so yeah!

I'll be sharing with you some of the memories and things that had happened for the past 2 months.

Shall we?=)

we had our 2nd Biology excursion recently which took place at the Royal National Park in the Southern Suburb.
It was a nice day for us to hit the beach, not handling plants, soil and etc. under the hot sun.
and of course, i'm not the only one complaining here. ;p
went to the heathland, rainforest and symbio.
here are some pictures. :) enjoy!

Journey to the South.
The bus has no air con. trust me we were all sweaty and grumpy.
p.s. Bz's expression is funny. :D
.
one of my many fav shots. :)
.
kebodohans. =p
.
Shindy, blocking the whole way.
Basically everyone was busing camwhoring cause the view is beautiful.
Note: Don't hate me to you whom I'm pointing at with the yellow arrow. :p
.
guys are in our shot.
Mel, myself, Shindy, Chek Ying, Steffi.
.
Claudia, my Biology lecturer/tutor.
She's one of my fav. funny and sarcastic.
.
one of my fav shots. =D
.
lalala, posers.
eh DooDoo Tan, the ocean line seems 'senget' don't you think? :p
.

DT: "I'm bringing sexy back! YEAP!"
.
This is the shot I took.
pretty isn't it?=)
.

Now, shots during excursion itself.

Heathland.
That's Alex in green, our demonstrator for that day.
and Kota posing for the camera. :)
.
Our Korean boys basically trapped the whole group on the way in as the spiky leaves were poking them and they were screaming and yapping like a girl. tsk tsk.
.

compare this...
to this.
(our first excursion at Bondi Beach)
very huge contrast there. ngeheh. ;)
.

Symbio.

bugger didn't want my kissies. :(
.
oh! oh! I taught the ka-nga-loooo to read book!=D
.
once again. don't scold me DooDoo. :(
.

bugger ate paper bag. poor thing.
.
oooh!oooh! I snapped this for you Kyan. This is you. :D
.

My China Koala.
June said that the Koala looks Chinese. haha!
.

Rainforest
.
there were 2 monkeys searching for ticks. nom nom nom!
.

oh, don't misunderstand us.
my back was itchy. :D
.

poser. everyone listening i'm posing. :D
.

"my pigu very the nice smell ah!=D"
.
Blown away by the wind!=D
.

semangat mother nature. =D
.

Randomness.
let's see how random can we get. :)
.
oh! Don't be fooled! He was posing.=p
.
I found this outside a shop.
seriously, who's so stupid. FAIL.
.
our shopping spree is boring for Kota.
Spotted: dozing off in FC.
.
Bz's work of art. Smart eyh? It's rubber gloves. ;)
.

"Macha! Can I have 1 Maccha Ice Cream please!"
.
dramatic much. :p
.

DinTaiFung. I wasn't fully awake yet.
.

Kelly's. loves.

oh I miss you dear. we were just talking about you! :)

=)
.
@Lindt Cafe.

I did this on purpose to show YJ.
yinnjeng! Are you annoyed with this? Do you wanna scratch badly?=D
.

his.
.

J and I had our hot chocolates.
.

D & I got J a giraffe.
I did that to her new toy.XD
.

Shindy Togelang's birthday.
I just love your last name. :)

ultimate favorite shot. did i ruined it? :p
.

She's finally 18 you guys. yeay~ -.-
.
Dinner for her birthday as well...
we were posing and this random guy came and joined us.
tried to imitate the girl on the poster but failed obviously
.
Suminoya.
We ate like monsters.
Kota timed us and apparently we only took 7 minutes to clear the plate. impressive eyh?:) It was non-stop ordering til the waiter got sick and tired of us. 1.5 hours of eating. aaaahhh~
n.b Kota was and still is embarassed on that day, needing to order for us like someone who had not been eating for ages. haha
we had 3 deserts. the 3rd one was on the way.
.
.
She didn't bring her "I <3 love Sydney" shirt.
so I wrote that for her instead.

BabyMel and I. :)
I was washing my hands. -.-"
.

a little rambling and I'm going off.
My body is aching from swimming and I swear the weather is making me sleepy.
I'm not lazy!
(I know that's a lie right? :p)
It'd been raining continuously for a few days.
I really do appreciate Mr. Sun's presence now.

Everything had been stable and blissful for now.
I'm pretty much happy.
yet, there is something which upset me a lot all this while.
and I wish that that something would just die and vanish.
I found that the not having internet basically gave me time to think.
what is necessary and what isn't...
I've the answer now.

that is...I've everything I needed.

Everything except the ones I care about back in Malaysia.
sis, bitches, sluts, bastards, bros, etc. I miss you...very much. :)
and I noticed that everyone seem to forget what date I'm coming back at.
I'm not telling again. If you forget, then it's too bad. turn it into a surprise instead. :p

and Jean, June, Laney, Mishand&Dino, Kyan, Ryo, Praev and Reed. Thanks for lending your ears to me earlier this year. I really appreaciate it. :)

I gave you time.
but you wasted my time.
Guess that's another mistake.
ohwells!

my mother is on facebook.
sighs.

I'm getting back to my book now.
update you people when something interesting comes up alright? :)

withlove.

p.s. upforsnugglingsweetie? :)

what are we?

2009-09-25T12:22:00.004+10:00

strangers...

stuck with: Iron&Wine - Flightless Bird, American Mouth.

Hello there,

I'm back again.

Lately the weather had been odd.

It was warm at one point, then came the gust of wind, and voila! came the dust storm.

The sky was pretty. (click me for pictures)

It was redish-orange everywhere.

I skipped the morning class and went in the afternoon instead after the condition got better.

It wasn't that bad according to those who walked in the morning when everything was still orangy.

So! How are you people? =)

I might come online for a while tonight, so be around to update me about everything? :)

i miss you guys.

Today I opened (null) and realized that it's time for a change.

I can't stay like this, in my foolish way.

I have something good,

something positive, a reason to be happy.

and yes,

I am a grateful child.

even if part of it is true,

that would make me a fool.

my 'person'(applying for several people), I need you.

you; who is always there for me supporting me even if it's risky and wrong.

how did we ended up like this?

Secretly I'm glad that we did. :)

My study break is next week.

and obviously 'study' is completely ignored by all of us.

This week, friends from Melbourne came to Sydney.

Went out for dinner with them yesterday at Hurricane's.

Friends of friends came to Sydney.

My unit is merrier, smaller. ;p

Tomorrow they'll be leaving.

And I finally managed to coax her to come next week!
can't wait til you're here my dearest!=)

With Zul stopping by Sydney for 2 nights, I'll be out on the weekends and of course Freddie, I'll bring you out on a epic breakfast meal aight? =)

Time for lunch! I'll update you guys soon. :)

thanks for being such a sweetheart. ;)

we love mother nature.

2009-09-17T16:27:00.002+10:00

hello people! sorry for MIA-ing!

Can't blame me cause I have no internet at home...yet!

Okay! now for the short update as I have 20 minutes free before the red shirt sign up thingy.
Sem 2 had been great. but I sense that I'm lazier now in Sem 2. =p
hardly doing any work. (I know, "Carol start studying bitch!")

I'd been eating a lot which means=gained weight.
And to share a little information with you people,
Kyan and I both made a bet; I'll have to be hot by the time I'm back in Malaysia and he has to be buff by the time I see him in Malaysia.
Whoever who doesn't fit the requirement, will have to sing the Doraemon song around Starbucks.

p.s. I guess you're winning Kyan.
If anyone had seen Kyan lately, please notify me whether he's close to buff or not. Cause the last time I met him, he's skinny as a twig.=D

Life had been better now.
As you can see, I'm complaining LESS and I'm less emo.

Before I end this post here, I would like to say that I miss you people whom are worth missing. :)
Hearing from some of you really make my day.
But then again I'm broke (only for this week) so no credit to reply you Praev!=(
And I'm waiting for you to come next year Jeany. :D shop-pink! :D :D

I can't upload pictures here, idky!
So I will upload them pwetty pwetty(It's a lie) when I get my internet kay?
kisskiss!

thanks for making my every day awesome.=)

you're all i need.

2009-09-01T22:02:00.004+10:00

how are you?

hope you're doing fine.
and i miss you.

it'd been a while! so it's time for a short update. The housemates and I are still trying to settle the internet so I promise that I will catch up with you people. :) and oh, have I mentioned that I miss you?

Timetable for the new semester is better this time. not so bitchy. =D
Place is messy.
TGIF makes sense to me now that we have guests every Friday.
People are lovely.
I am doing good.
Studies...working on it. ;)
sleeping like a pig.
laying off booze.
staying home...a lot.
stocked up on instant noodles, plenty of them! (will upload pictures one day)

now tell me...what else do you want to know?
and oh, i miss you! again!=D

things are rather different now. i feel different. i feel...less moody and more lively.
and from time to time, I start to see things differently.
things happens, and from that, sometimes i wonder whether i was just being foolish all along.
timing is really bad.

what happens next?
No news. no nothing.

I guess they're right. I'm strong and I know how to get back up, of course with your support my friends. :)

and if you must know, I'm no longer pathetically emo-ish. =p
i have a reason to keep going on and am grateful.

anyways! got to go! catch up with you guys soon! i miss you!

3 weeks. and no hair still. XD
hope you're enjoying yourself back home Mo! see ya in Oct!
.
Mark is my English tutor.
He claimed that he's sexy.
and I wrote that.
Drawings by Kota and his sister Yuko( in the picture).
.
The birth of baby Evan, my cousin.
He's a poser. a cute one. =)
.

Gf snapped this after the Sem 1 exam.

withlove,
caroline.

there's a million things that I wanna say,
yet the words won't come out.

it's okay. i hope you die.

2009-08-17T17:30:00.006+10:00

=D
was watching this the other day.

hello people! this course i'm in now is shitty.
fucking screwing with people's gpa.
i'm still dissatisfied with what they gave for my sem 1.

you're not knocking me down. roar!

have heaps to say but once again some issues are not meant to be brought up publicly.

politics. business. ptuih. i hope you suffer.;)

Apparently it is as smooth as baby's butt now according to him. XD
.
HAHAHHAHAHHAHAH!
charcoal on carpet. yeah, it stoinked.
.
they say miracle awaits for us at the end of the rainbow.
are u the one?

withlove,
caroline.
went back the next day, it was missing. someone must'd bought it.=/
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you
"MC-I miss you"

what is it?

2009-08-12T22:44:00.006+10:00

this week itself had been a very stressful week for me and i have a feeling that this will go on for some time. and not forgetting the dramas. how 'exciting'!

sometimes you just need to look at yourself in the mirror and find out what the issue is instead of asking.
it's so clear, right in front of you. all you need to do is look and realize.

i have my limit which i'm sure everyone has one too. you just happened to trespass that limit and not realizing that yourself.

Alright! back to updates!
I'm back in uni again, bye bye sem 1, hello sem 2!
I must say that this time, it felt different;a certain awkwardness and strained kinda feeling in the atmosphere in our class.
i miss the togetherness-us.
lecturers are not really happy with the results i suppose cause they're acting really differently,
and as expected (from the hints I picked up from my tutors) my results are not fantastic as it is fugly.
i am not happy about this. how will she react when she finds out about it?
i really do hope that i'll learn my lesson this time around and be a full time nerd.
i don't even know where is the enthusiasm to work hard and score.
i don't even know how to focus 100%.
i need to self reflect myself.

where did i went wrong?

trying to settle down now but everything just fucking goes wrong.

friends. i miss you.

boy,
imu.
sometimes i wish that you are here with me.
to make things better.

Friends of my mother, you can just shut the hell up and stop snooping around. i'm sure you're old enough to realize that you should actually act like an adult.

and friends, i might put my blog to private, so please, check your mail for my invitation. or if you wish to be a reader still, leave a message with your email in my cbox.=)

life is good, i'm feeling you!

2009-08-04T21:36:00.003+10:00

hello there! how are you people doing?

I'm unable to update cause I'm still settling down at the new place.

so far so good. but had been unwell, so yeah! will update soon!=)

withlove,
caroline.

p.s. i miss you.

I feel light, I feel love, I feel butterflies.

2009-07-30T15:34:00.007+10:00

was going through my old files and I found this,

So the new Lord of the Rings movie is coming out, and you want to impress some Ah Lian you're trying to buaya by being able to
explain the whole complicated plot with all the funny sounding names and words. You want to seem like you've actually read all
3 books, but damn suay even The New Paper is too 'cheem' for you. Neh'mine! Dun scared! Here is our easy to understand guide
to J.R.R. Tolkein's trilogy, written specially in the conversational style of Ah Bengs, so you can memorize:

THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE RING
Last time got this short-short person with si-beh hairy legs called Bilbo, lor. He, hor, got this ring that last time belong to
some monster.

But then, hor, one day suay-suay the monster want it back, and send his kah kiah to Bilbo's house to settle, lah.

But the ring, hor, acherly can make people very powderful. But then, hor, if you wear too long will also kena sai. Si beh hiong one,
so better faster go and destroy it, lor.

So Bilbo's nephew Frodo? Aiyah, dun ask me why their name all so funny, can or not? You ask me, I ask who?

Anyway, Frodo and some peng yew kena arrow to go and destroy the ring.

But donno why also, they must do it in the monster's home, which is at the end of New Zealand there.

So they walk and walk and walk across New Zealand, lah. And then along the way, got monster chase them, got people want to
hoot them, some of them dieded, all sorts of thing, lah.

At the end, Frodo and Sam, his pooi-pooi friend who I think so is a bit ah quah, got separated from the rest.
***

THE TWO TOWERS
Frodo and Sam meet up with this thing called Gollum, who look like he take too much Slim 10 like that.

At the same time, hor, the other friends get into some powderful hooting session, where, wah lau eh, even the trees can do
gongfu one. They all fight over what, I also donno, but quite kan cheong, lah.
***

THE RETURN OF THE KING
In the end, Frodo and his peng yew all win leow, lah. Arbuthen?!

But i not sure becoz hoh i still trying to get ah lian to go with me mah.

She ah.... very 5354, so for the real end of it - i tell u when i go see see with ah lian.

(This condensed version of J.R.R. Tolkein's Lord of the Rings trilogy was brought to you courtesy of the Coxford Singlish
Dictionary)

get it?=)

***

and this!

Who says our English is teruk.? Just see below
- Ours is
simple,short,concise, straight-to-point, effective etc.........

WHEN GIVING A CUSTOMER BAD NEWS
Britons: I'm sorry, Sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you want in your size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outlets for you.
Malaysians: No Stock.

RETURNING A CALL
Britons: Hello, this is John Smith. Did anyone page for me a few moments ago?
Malaysians: Hello, who page?

ASKING SOMEONE TO MAKE WAY .
Britons: Excuse me, I'd like to get by. Would you please make way?
Malaysians: S-kew me

WHEN SOMEONE OFFERS TO PAY
Britons: Hey, put your wallet away, this drink is on me.
Malaysians:No-need, lah.

WHEN ASKING FOR PERMISSION
Britons: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through this door?
Malaysians: (pointing the door) can ar?

WHEN ENTERTAINING
Britons: Please make yourself right at home.
Malaysians: Don't be shy, lah!

WHEN DOUBTING SOMEONE
Britons: I don't recall you giving me the money.
Malaysians: Where got?

WHEN DECLINING AN OFFER
Britons: I'd prefer not to do that, if you don't mind.
Malaysians: Don't want la...

IN DISAGREEING ON A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION
Britons: Err. Tom, I have to stop you there. I understand where you're coming from, but I really have to disagree with what you said about the issue.
Malaysians: You mad, ah?

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE TO LOWER THEIR
VOICE.
Britons: Excuse me, but could you please ! lower your voice, I'm trying to concentrate over here.
Malaysians: Shut up lah!

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE IF HE/SHE KNOWS
YOU.
Britons: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for some time.. Do I know you?
Malaysians: See what, see what?

WHEN ASSESSING A TIGHT SITUATION.
Britons: We seem to be in a bit of a predicament at the moment.
Malaysians: Die-lah!!

WHEN TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAD
HAPPENED
Britons: Will someone tell me what has just happened?
Malaysians: Wat happen Why like
that....

WHEN SOME ONE DID SOMETHING WRONG
Britons: This isn't the way to do it, here let me show you
Malaysians: like that also don't know
how to do!!!!

WHEN ONE IS ANGRY
Britons: Would you mind not disturbing me
Malaysians:Celaka u!

aiyayaya~ Haven't you heard? Malaysia Boleh! ;p

***

cheesy words.

A kiss is just a kiss until you find the one you love.
A hug is just a hug until its from the one you're thinking of.
A dream is just a dream until you make it come true.
Love is just a word until its proven to you.

***

Pessimist:
If you love someone,
Set her free ...
If she ever comes back, she's yours,
If she doesn't, as expected, she never was.

Shakespeare:
If you love someone,
Set her free ... .
If she ever comes back, she's yours,
If she doesn't, here's the poison, suicide
yourself for her.

Optimist:
If you love someone,
Set her free ... .
Don't worry, she will come back.

Suspicious:
If you love someone,
Set her free ... .
If she ever comes back, ask her why.

Impatient:
If you love someone,
Set her free ... .
If she doesn't comes back within some time
forget her.

Patient:
IF you love someone,
Set her free ... .
If she doesn't come back, continue to wait
until
she comes back

Playful:
If you love someone,
Set her free ... .
If she comes back, and if you love her still,
set her free again,
If she comes back, and if you love her still...

Computer Programmer:
If(you-love(m_she))
m_she.free()
if(m_she NULL)
m_she new CShe;

Animal-Rights Activist:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
In fact, all living creatures deserve to be
free!!

Lawyers:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
Clause 1a of Paragraph 13a-1 in the second
amendment of the Matrimonial Freedom Act
clearly
states that... .

Bill Gates:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
If she comes back, I think we can charge her
for
re-installation fees but
tell her that she's also going to get an
upgrade.

Biologist:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
She'll evolve.

Statisticians:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
If she loves you, the probability of her coming
back is high
If she doesn't, the Weibull distribution and
your relation was improbable anyway.

Schwarzenegger's fans:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
SHE'LL BE BACK!

Salesman:
If you love someone,
Set her free ... .
If she ever comes back, deal!
If she doesn't, so what! "NEXT".

Insurance agent:
If you love someone,
Show her the plan ... .
If she ever comes back, sign her up,
If she doesn't, keep follow up with her and
never give up!

Physician:
If you love someone,
set her free ... .
If she ever comes back, it's the law of gravity,
If she doesn't, either there's friction higher
than the force or the angle of collision
between
two objects did not
synchronize at the right angle.

Flirter:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
If she comes back.....
show her your new gurlfren

Mathematician:
If you love someone,
Set her free ... .
If she ever comes back, 1 1 2 (peanut!),
If she doesn't, Y 2X - log(0.46Y^2 (cos
(52/34X)) x 5Y^(-0.5)c) where ?c?
is the infinite constant of no turning point.

Nowadays' style:
If You Love Someone,
Set it free,
If It Comes Back, It is Yours
If It Doesn't, Hunt It Down and Kill It... !!! OR
PERHAPS REPORT TO IMMIGRATION THAT
SHE/HE IS AN
ILLEGAL IMMIGRANT...

The real thing is:
If you love someone
WHY IN THE FIRST PLACE SET HER FREE??!!
YOU CARELESS IDIOT!!!

william hung:
if u love sumone set her free,
for she has no proffesional training,
if she returns, SHE BANGS SHE BANGS!
if she doesn't, u have tried ur best and u have
no regrets
***

it was fun.

2009-07-28T23:08:00.010+10:00

note: develop a thick skin.

Steffi's birthday was during the exam period so we celebrated yesterday at Suminoya.
buffet style, reasonable price and not to mention yummy. ;)
i think we scare the waiter and waitress a little bit with the amount of food we ate.
after dinner, we surprised her with a cake at Echo Point.
that place is really disgusting; the room smells. but we were desperate.

i don't have the urge and the inspiration to blog anymore.
friends, where are you? cause it seems like i'm updating myself than you guys.

anyways, pictures from yesterday.
and it was a fun night.
we did the silliest thing ever; posing outside almost every boutique.
had a great laugh and that's exactly what I needed. :)

after dinner, all feeling 'smoking' hot. not forgetting sticky and ashy. :p
.
this is Steffi...with the cake.
and this is Steffi without her head. ;D
.

chilla~ we're not jakuns, merely posing~
i was sick of it cause it was the second round of ice cream. Kota ordered wrongly. -.-"
.

once again, POSE~
.
these people decided to pose with something as well,
and they came up with that.
.

their food became black. i was saving their food.
.

the way she eat is damn cute!
.

bulatness.
.

inside joke: bringing out the 'commie farmer'ness in us. ;)
.

and yes! they kicked ass!

i'm out of here cause i'm out of words.
but before i end this post,
everybody say...
CHAIIIIIIIIII~
(i know, lame right~)

withlove,
caroline.

Flo Rida - Sugar.

we gonna party like it's your birthday!

2009-07-25T15:30:00.004+10:00

Birthday shout out to Dave, Tinesh, John, Mysara and WanJi!

I was checking my inbox yesterday and this message caught my eyes.
HAHA! death threat by ketot/chilli padi. ahhh~ it made my day. Sorry for not contacting you guys. I'm still not settled down. -.-" For you people back home whom I never spoken much to, you're not forgotten. I'm waiting for December to come causeeeeeee~ I'll be flying back on the 5th December!=) Do your friend a favour by not flying anywhere else in December yah?=p

let's hope tonight won't be a disaster.
I'm just a girl trying to have some fun.

tell me, tell me something I should know.

2009-07-24T15:32:00.005+10:00

exam is finally over!
and yesterday was fun. :)
had a good laugh at bz's place.
need a good laugh to take that frown away for just a while.
but when it passes midnight, nothing was fun anymore.
is it me or is it the people who are not used to be around people like me.
ohwait, they were kong'd. forgiven for all the bs.
mission accomplish i guess?
male ego. tsk tsk.
the morning after was terrible. my back ache like crap. i need a body massage. sigh.

photos.
.

the other day at a place near uni.
.

exam hall at some betting place.=p
race course~
.

I gave Moe a tampon,
and he lit it up.
.

Li Gang thought that it's an actual fire place.
well, it isn't.

***

i'm super tired.
my mind is not with me lately.
i need to learn how to prioritize myself.

should i go? should i not?
it's a 60-40 thing.

nap time. to redeem my sleeping time!
mummy is the cutest thing on the world.
just skyped with her. HAHA

carol: "don't worry, i'll buy a baseball bat to guard myself"
mum: "0.0"

withlove,
caroline.wish you were here...
------
but wishes are bullshit.
they never come true.

do you hear me?

2009-07-22T22:40:00.007+10:00

lelove.

there are times...

when I walk alone.
I tend recall.
it made my long trip much shorter.
cause I was lost in my own world of memories.
they seemed so vivid every single time...
there are countless time when I nearly got hit by car.

i dare not look into the future.
i'm not ready to face the truth, the possibilities.

all this while, the problem lies in me.
whatthefuckamidoing?

last to go...then I'll be free for a week.
bear being the disappointment again.
will be back on Friday.
Thursday is ladies night. ;)

mum, dad, bro, i miss you. =(

gossip/heavycross.

2009-07-21T23:42:00.005+10:00

hello there!

Lately, I'd lost my inspiration to blog. Mainly because nothing much is going on here. Just have to focus on ending what i started. My brain isn't functioning at its best, so bear with me.

Last week had been a rough week for me and lucky thing almost everything is pretty much sorted now and I can continue cracking my head after the final paper on Thursday.

and my head is pretty much stuffed (like D said, stuffed like a turkey!) with information.
Sleep debt, eating like there's no tomorrow, and the list goes on.

Can't wait for Thursday to end and for us to step into Nirvana to have a peek. ;)

i shall rest today and study tomorrow. wish me all the best people. i will give you candies if you do.=D

and oh, moving out soon. have I mentioned that I hate packing? ohwait, I did...I guess!

the mother made an offer that I couldn't resist.
but i'm no quitter.

Source: Le Fashion.

sick of songs of the broken hearted.

Several times now, I'd been seeing you in my dreams.
maybe I miss you just too much.
sometimes i wonder what is wrong with me.

if, and only if, I could be where you are...

withlove,
caroline.

i just realized that I was a little careless.
was being really cautious after what I had to go through,
but I slipped and fell.

a million miles away.

2009-07-18T23:48:00.005+10:00

You’re the boat.
I am the dangerous unforgiving sea.
But, I would like to be the safe harbor,
lying as your only sanctuary.
I am the secret love letter in you locker.
Though I wish you wrote me a secret love letter
I am the aching space you ache for…
Yet, I ache for you more.
I am the girl who sleeps alone
I am the girl who pretends you sleep next to me.
I know that you will never know,
That more than anything I want you to be my boat.

- S O'Neil. -

"We are just friends. Several times now, I have fallen asleep intertwined with you. Cheek to cheek, even lip to lip--just feeling your breath on my skin. We go no further. Today we went for a walk after a summer pour, and I could feel the warm steam rising from the streets. Now tonight, I sleep alone. It's probably healthy because when I'm tangled up with you I can hardly sleep at all. I spend the whole night on fire, quietly smoldering most of the time. Except when you pull me closer and rub your soft scruffle up and down my neck and chest. Or when you grab me by the hip bone and sink your thumbs into my flesh, sending electric chills up and down my body.Or when you pull me into you, sliding your fingers down my spine until they press the small of my back (chills, again). Or when your lips find the back of my neck and you mumble about how good I smell. Those are the times that the smoldering gives way to a blazing flare and all I can do is hope for a nap the next day.

But not tonight. You're there and I'm here. I could never tell you this, but every night your body isn't pressed against mine, I have to pack pillows around myself just to fall asleep. But we are just friends, and I'm sure you sleep fine without me."

Le Love.

i find them pretty interesting. :)

one foot wrong.

2009-07-18T09:38:00.004+10:00

the first week of exam is over. another 3 papers more to go.
I'm super exhausted now. nothing seem to go well.
and I'm missing you people badly.
and the worse part is that I don't even know what I want to do anymore.
ohwells!
back to studying! can't afford to slack anymore.

spotted: Sydney train.
Kayeeee~!=)

withlove,
caroline.

Am I sweating
Or are these tears on my face?
Should I be hungry?
I can't remember the last time that I ate
Call someone, I need a friend to talk me down

But one foot wrong and I'm gonna fall
Somebody gets it, somebody gets it
But one foot wrong and I'm gonna fall
Somebody gets it, somebody gets it

All the lights are on but I'm in the dark
Who's gonna find me? Who's gonna find me?
Just one foot wrong
You'll have to love me when I'm gone

sunnyday.

2009-07-15T11:49:00.003+10:00

you seem happier now, i'm glad to see that.

memories in my eyes.

2009-07-12T14:28:00.002+10:00

Rascal Flatts - Bless the Broken Road.

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

[Chorus]

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

just smile and everything will be alright...

still in love.

2009-07-11T13:26:00.002+10:00

he's one funny fella. his videos are the best remedy when you're feeling down. =D

Shane Dawson.
he's funny.
he's cute.
what more can you ask for?=D
enjoy that!

i'm struggling with the subs.
will i be able to finish them in time?=(
having 3 papers in 2 days next week, and 3 subs in 3 days for the following week.
i'm going to 'hunt' for food now.
til then!

and oh, i miss you.

i dream about you.

2009-07-07T23:38:00.004+10:00

current obsessions: gums&jellybeans. no good~ nuupe!

next week is the first week of our exam. and i'm not prepared.
lost my bloody drive to do anything productive. ie studying.
why is that so?:(
maybe i'll study again tomorrow.
right now i'm just so mentally tired and physically as well!
imma hit the sack soon.
burnt a hole in my new stockings. thanks to the wind! the cig butt flicked by 'my friend', hit my right thigh. =/

it itched okay! :(

sis! these are the few of the MANY flavours!=D love?love?! :D:D

***

was talking to darlingassholekyan last night. time for update and what not.
and as usual, sorry asshole, i just have to betray you a little. :p

sigh! missing those time when we bang him.
If you haven't read our previous conversation which is 100% pointless,
and if you're interested of course!
2 girls 1 asshole.
too bad sis you weren't online or not we can sama sama gang bang him!=D
sorry kyan but we still love you! :D

by the time you read this, you're so going to say, "bitchhhh~!"
sigh. it's always the same thing. :p

alright now! time to hit the sack! night night!

withlove,
CT.

Voy a quererte aunque me saquen el corazón.

2009-07-05T20:44:00.004+10:00

Yo nací para tus ojos, para nadie más

Siempre voy a estar en tu camino

5th July 2009.
exactly 5 months til I'm back in Malaysia.

will things be the same at the rate of how things are going now?
sigh.
keeping my hope up still.
I'm not putting out the fire that soon.
hoping to be able to find a place@Ps; going for inspection tomorrow. D, you stay away from the lady. -.-
and hoping to be able to cope with the exam coming up soon.
had been eating like a pig lately. oinks.
struggling with Chemistry! oh kill me now!

Kota-after 2 days of not sleeping.
forced him to take a nap in the common room.
this is how English presentation can affect him.
.
that thing stoinks.
.
Mr. Always-dozing-off.
.
Fried Lamb with CUMin w/Rice.
sweet gesus.

***
withlove,
caroline.

girl, you're such a mess.

djyoeri-fuckoncocaine.

2009-07-05T00:54:00.003+10:00

D: " its a game just waiting for it to die on its own... "

somehow I refuse to look at it in that manner.
and yes,
I would put 'ones' happiness ahead of mine even though it'll kill me.

what am I doing?
it's a week to exam and I can't start on anything.
my mind is so distracted.
somewhere, some place, someone, somehow.

that girl i see, she's frowning with sadness in her eyes,
what's on her mind?
her eyes screams nothing but misery.
before i knew it, she fell apart and disappeared.
and i was alone again.

til now, that question is still playing in my mind.
is it good or is it bad?

p.s. i need you.

stumbled upon 'love'.

2009-07-03T23:51:00.007+10:00

and oh, he's such a cutie. ;)

Gaspard Ulliel.

withlove,
caroline.

here i sit alone,
watching people walking past,
car driving past,
wind blowing the scattered leaves wild and free,
and there i sat,
kissed by sun rays,
the image of you decided to pay my mind a visit.
don't you know, that you do wonders?

ohbio!

2009-07-02T21:54:00.002+10:00

taking a break from Bio.

Taylor Swift - White Horse.
S: All I want is you. Do you love me?
T: Yes...
remember this? at the airport?
was close to tears when I was with mummy and parting off with Adrian when you guys called.
T.T
halfbroRyo claimed that it's my song. ;)

***

Taylor Swift - You Belong To me.
<3

getting back to Bio...

sleepysickness.

2009-07-01T22:12:00.003+10:00

Sunlounger Feat Zara - Lost (Andrelli & Blue's Thousand Lighters Mix)

you're not alone.

that's kyan.coughs!
.
if this picture makes any one of you smile even the slightest,
i don't mind acting like some sohai anytime. :)

withlove,
caroline.

see what see? =p looking for something? XD

looking out for you to hold my hand, it feels like I could fall.

2009-06-30T22:27:00.009+10:00

Premier for Bruno was in Sydney last night. wtf. =(

Today Derrick and I skipped 2 lectures to meet up with the bff (Reed) and KL at Darling Harbour.
thanks Hong for the ride and Reed&KL for being an hour late!
waiting at the POTR (Pancakes on the Rocks) wasn't fun.
Were walking around most of our time; Darling Harbour, D's emo spot with so-called jellyfish swimming in it (I didn't spotted any), Hyde Park, around the city.
it felt like the home; the presence of them.
somehow reminded me of all of you back home.
honestly, i really do miss home.
i miss every single one of you.
especially you; a.t.
but! I had heaps of fun today!=D
learning about C as well. *coughs!* =p
I heard about half sis wanting to come,
(gee girl! if you're able to come it would be triple the awesomeness!)
though, I'm still hoping for my little darling to come over with her Mr. Giraffe from Melbourne. ;)

I am super tired now. will talk less and upload some pictures for your viewing pleasure.
thanks for visiting Reedy! and even though you were there with me for a short period of time,
I still managed to update you a little. haha!

i sense that the intense vibe that I'm feeling is slowly receding,
which! is a good thing.
i can live without being affected emotionally.

I curi from Reed. polis don't catch me ya?
note: D isn't photo friendly. apparently he has something against being photographed.=p
***
Jean loves?=D
.

Reedy's.
.

Carolie's. (Reed calls me that)
.

KL's bored face.
.

complaining cause of what you said bff!
.

our 3rd shot til we got it right. haha!
.

D's emo spot with NO jellyfish spotted.
.

fella did push ups wherever we stopped at. zomg.
.

candid. not a good shot.
.

=D
.

ruining his shot. HAHA!
.

COCK BAY WHARF.
(it's actually Cockle Bay Wharf)

.

Cum Wealth Bank.
.
Candid. eh D, your foot is in the picture. =p
.

.

moi's favourite shots!
there's so many of them cause they were trying to get it right. =.=
.

yumm!
.

central station.
(oh DERRICK! YOU'RE IN THE PICTURE AGAIN!=D)
haha! yeap! I just HAVE to remind you that. =p
***

David Guetta ft. Kelly Rowland - When Love Takes Over.

<3>

withlove,
caroline.

p.s. what is it? i just don't get it.

It's like one of those bad dreams, when you can't wake up.

2009-06-29T20:51:00.009+10:00

I don't mind it

I don't mind at all
It's like you're the swing set
And I'm the kid that falls
It's like the way we fight
The times I've cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it's got to be right
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

I don't mind it
I still don't mind at all
It's like one of those bad dreams
When you can't wake up
It looks like you've given up
You've had enough
But I want more
No I won't stop
Because I just know
You'll come around
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

Just don't stand there and watch me fall
Because I, because I still don't mind at all

It's like the way we fight
The times I've cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it's got to be right,
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

I don't believe you

Pink - I don't believe you.

***

still feeling sickish! ahhh~ ccb!
I'm soooo going to see Reed tomorrow and make him sick. buahahahha!=D
nahh, i'm not that evil. will be meeting my long lost kawan baik!=D ahhh finally a breath of 'fresh-from-Malaysia'!
tomorrow's temperature will be awesome. 23 degrees! good, good!
apparently someone came to Sydney and I thought what was the surprise.
Little that I know that HE is the surprise. haha! anyway!
Less talking cause I need to revise on my Chemmy.
pictures for you people, if you're interested~

out of order with the green button lighted.
.
certified barber. my new job.
Moe's new 'bulu-cut'.
burnt&snipped!
;)
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little cousin Miranda.
she's sooo adorable!=D
.

chinese culture; uncle.
western culture; second cousin.
anyway, he's Chris!=D
.
the girl's (whom I always molest in class) PRADA with the A missing.
Shindy's
.
our lab work for today.
heart, liver, lungs.
my boys'(lab partners) reaction were priceless!=D
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Moe's heart. carved out of lung tissues.
.
Bz being disgusting. =p
.
Future doctor with a bad influence.
note: not mine.
i don't smoke.
(haha actually it is all a lie. =p)
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Kyan&Praev: the marks are there to remind you of yours truly when i'm away. ngeheheh!<3

and,
I'm missing that someone. =/

okay girl!
back to Chemmy!

withlove,
caroline.

a video secretly recorded by joey. I was imitating the lecturers. he only recorded a small part of it. =/

p.s. can i turn back time and change something? cause i hate how things are now.

study vs sleep.

2009-06-27T23:53:00.008+10:00

i told myself that I will start off on revision,
but all I did was giving myself excuses; i'm not feeling well.

gotten my vaccine jab today.
it wasn't as painful as described.
I cringed and squeezed the temple of my head telling him that I was ready,
I felt the initial pain, thinking that it's going to take a long time as the pain went on.
but i was wrong. opened my eyes, stared at him and asked, " that's it? "
Dr. T: " *flicking the syringe* yeap, done! "
Carol: wtf, so soon!

went Westfield for shopping today.
I'm an Extra junkie. you'll get what I mean when you see the amount of Extras that I have. ;)
still unwell! I think I need to get some rest!

was too bored,
I only spoke to half bro for a while moment ago and half sis when I just got home.
the rest of the time,
killed with this quiz. pretty interesting though.

note: 97% accurate. still not accurate. figure out what I'm not.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

♩Oh, sweetheart, put the bottle down, Cause you don't wanna miss out♩

i try not to think,
but it gets out of my control from everytime,
i wanna caress that face...just one more time.
i wanna be in those arms...just one more time.

***

withlove,
caroline.

King of Pop.

2009-06-26T21:28:00.006+10:00

Today Gill came up to us while we were talking amongst ourselves.
He told us that Michael Jackson had passed away.
When we went for class, words were buzzing around about MJ.
Then I knew that what Gillian said was true.

He was and always will be a legendary icon.
A man of talents and a trend setter, disregarding all the controversies in his life.
Known as the King of Pop.

His name will forever be remembered as how John Lennon, Marilyn Monroe and Elvis Presley names are.

RIP

Michael Joseph Jackson.
Age: 50
(August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009)

&

RIP
Farrah Fawcett.
Age: 62.
the original Charlie's Angel who lost her battle with cancer just few hours before MJ was admitted to the UCLA Medical Center.

My deepest condolences to their families.

***
it'd been a bad day for me.
don't want to talk about it.
pictures from Wednesday.
Myself, Shindy, Kiu, Steffi, Melmelbaby. =)
.
boots are not meant for walking (proven). hurt my feet like crap.
but I still love them. ;) <3
Them boots proven to have the 'aura'.
D, you know what I mean. ;)
withlove,
caroline.

thank God I have you people.

it's all a lie.

2009-06-26T06:35:00.003+10:00

just like I said before,
they do not appear to be as they are now,
cause they do bite.
just when you think it's alright,
sit back,
just wait and observe.

i just can't deal with it anymore,
i'm not closing an eye any further.
don't manipulate me with you emotions for forgiveness.

sometimes i wonder why.
am i insignificant?
is my existent a problem?
2 person proved me wrong.
thanks for being here for me anywhere anytime as mentioned.
as for that, who says that i'll never be alone,
it's just a lie.

caroline.